If I could talk with "Laura"

Dear “Laura”,

As I read about your story I felt compelled to reach out to you. Maybe my motivation for reaching out to you comes from the similarities in our upbringing. I was raised by my grandparents as well and I too believed that my parents had me before they were ready. Living with anyone other than your parents can make a child feel like they don’t fit in the family; almost like a house guest that over stays their welcome. I guess since 2002, when Belgian legalized euthanasia, there have been 1,400 people a year that feel similar to you. “Laura” we also share another trait, which is depression. For me, it has been a constant fight to maintain my sanity; and that’s with taking medications. I also had a parent who was an alcoholic as well; which led to me being sexually abused by others and that sucked. I understand that you’re 24 years old and in the process of making your funeral arrangements; as well as, your last words to your mother and grandmother.

This is normally where the intervention comes in, attempting to make you see the reasons for living But not this time. The reason people push us past our dark feelings are because they are uncomfortable talking about death and would rather jump straight to life. Even though they mean good, they unintentionally devalue our feelings in order to make them a little more comfortable with helping us. “Laura” once your date for death is set, what do you see as the benefits for ending this life? Do you believe a benefit would be that you would rid yourself of all pain (emotional and physical)? Would a benefit be to not feeling like a failure? How about not being a burden to others, by way of worrying about you? "Laura", while I do empathize with you, I disagree with your statment of, "life, thats not for me." 

"Laura" everything that you and I have went through (Good/Bad) is woven into our being, with the purpose of giving us an opportunity to experience unconditional love from a God who works EVERYTHING out for our good. By the way, the benefits that I listed above are unproven, wishful thoughts that attach themselves to our feelings, to appear as facts when in actuality they are nothing more than opinions. Hope to talk with you later. I love you, in Jesus Name.